being a meanie
i love being a mom. i’d love to say i love everything about it but there are times when being the grown up, being the parent, is not what i love.
last night was one of those times. my daughter started high school this year but she also started taking junior company classes at a new ballet studio. add to that the normal business of homework and social life that comes along with high school and she is one very busy young woman. she’s doing well though…for the most part. but recently she’s stumbled in one of her courses to such an extent that i had to take action. it was not something that could be ignored and she knew of the consequences for such a situation ahead of time.
the thing is though – handing out consequences and taking away privileges is one of the things i hate most about beign a parent. i feel horrible. knowing that i’ve made a decision that has hurt her feelings and made her cry breaks my heart in many ways. she’s such a great kid and works so hard. she is an amazing person so smart and such a bright light in my life. it kills me when i make decisions that dim this light a little.
i know it is only a temporary situation. missing out on one night of fun is not going to kill her. and i know it’s part of my job, my responsibility, as her mom to help her stay on track and make good decisions and understand that there on consequences in life when responsibilities are not met. but still playing the role of the mean mom is not fun - i hate it and wish i never had to do it.
I know what you mean. I hate having to take away something and then living to tell about it as a parent. (hugs)