getting with the program
so i haven’t written in a while. i could tell you all that i’ve been up to but you can guess – christmas, new year, family, friends and so on. it’s been busy and not and fabulous all the time. and now here we are at the beginning of 2009 and somewhere, somehow, something changed for me. i cannot tell you what exactly or when or why even but there is just something that changed. i feel different. better. more settled even. i’ve got some serious focus that i flew out the window a couple of months ago and never came back… until now.
i feel as if i am getting with the program. my program. the program i’ve had in my head for a long time now that includes some actions and goals i’ve watned to take but hadn’t been ready to work on i guess. i tried. over and over again, i would try but now i am just doing and it feels so much better.
it’s only been 3 days – i know that’s not a whole lot but i know that the things i’m changing now are just going to stick because i have no desire to go back. the biggest tell tale sign that it’s going to work is that this is the 3rd day I have only had ONE can on diet coke. i used to have at least 5 or 6 each day (some days even 10 – eek!) and in the past, when i have tried to kick the habit, it never stuck! by day 3 i was in almost a panic, feeling sluggish and jittery w/ a mean and nasty head ache on the side. i was grumpy and cranky and easily annoyed. and w/in a day or two of dealing with that i would say f-it and just go back to drinkning more soda. i have had none of that except for a breif moment on the first day. but since then, it’s been smooth sailing.
maybe i’ve finally made up my mind to treat my body better and give it what it needs. you know, instead of just saying it is what i was going to do or thinking i should do something but not. really truly it doesn’t matter all that much. what really matters is that there has been a shift with in me. a good shift. and i like it :O)
YOU GO GIRL! so proud of you. keep it up!